quote for life.

"I must learn to love the fool in me--the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries. It alone protects me against that utterly self-controlled, masterful tyrant whom I also harbor and who would rob me of human aliveness, humility, and dignity but for my fool." -- Theodore I. Rubin, MD

travel-lust.

Soo... over the past week I have been trying to keep myself busy. From movies to hockey games, board games to studying (blargh). I've just been trying to keep my mind off the situation at hand. Wounds are still fresh. But after all is said and done, I am never going back on my lifetime saying of "life is good." Because life IS good!! It's flippin' fun while we have it!!

But onto the point, I have reeeeaaaaaallllllyyyyyy wanted to get out of town for a little. Roam the world. Or country. Or province. Or general area outside of my basement. That would be nice.
Our school is taking a trip to Costa Rica on spring break and I am sooooo excited!! :D it's going to be a blast and a half.
But you know where else I want to go? Iceland.
Yeah, you read right, Iceland. Who would want to go to Iceland you say? Me, that's who. Watch this video and you will too.

(pardon the naked people in the middle. (Egad!))
Much love. -taite

inspiring.

If there is one thing that I have learned over the past 4 weeks, it is that life is a gift. I realized that I need to live in the moment and reach for things that I would usually shy away from. I need to play. To run. To laugh. To sing. To love. To be carefree. To be forgiving. To be fun. To be an example. We need to appreciate life for what it is, because life is too short to treat it otherwise. I know that for my whole life people have been telling me "Life is short, have fun." And I never realized the deep truth in that statement. You seriously, SERIOUSLY don't know which day will be your last. Enjoy each breath you take, because life as you know it could soon end. 

“People say you don't know what you've got until it's gone...truth is, you knew what you had, you just thought you'd never lose it.”  

My friends, enjoy whatcha got. I love you. Yes you, for real. Even if I barely know you, I love you!!! Talk to me, so I can know you if I don't. Have a merry ol' day, and cherish your loved ones and every moment you have with them.

- Taite. :)

nephew.

Just in case you didn't know, my nephew is freaking adorable.

It seems like forever since I have seen him last. Lately I have been missing my family. A lot. Wendy and I do pretty well by ourselves, but I miss all my siblings. Especially my sissy. I love her. (You are probably reading this right now, love you Melia!! :) Back to my nephew, he is growing up way too quickly. It's nuts. I miss that kid.

And here's his youtube video if you haven't already seen it. He's a sick b-baller.

Summer-longing.

How much I long for Summer. The relaxing days spent mostly on my porch, sun-basking. The drives to the bridge. Maxing out the car with Clay. Dubstep appreciation drives with Renzo. Bridge jumping in the dark. Lightning watches on the tramp. Running around in the pouring rain (and the boys having nearly no clothing on... ;P). Walking around town and posing as skid-kids. Shenannies. Rooftop egg tosses. Texting until all hours. Water fights. Fortress-building. Duck-shooting. Apple-batting. Bike-jumping. Movie-watching. Cuddle sessions. Venting feelings. Climbing trees. Pool playing. Scaring children. Bike riding. Longboarding. Winks runs. Museum visits. Cramping too many people into a car. Awkward glances. Laughing fits. Shopping. Trying on outrageous clothing. Being spontaneous. Frollicking and skipping down roads. And sidewalks. And hallways. Dancing our butts off. Grinding. :) Pestering each other. Pantsing each other. Flashing each other. Setting each other up. Making fun. Sitting on park benches. Playing on parks. Midnight meet-ups. Hand holds. Long hugs. Taunting for kisses. Counting steps. Lounging on couches. Playing games. Watching games. Party crashing. Baking. Dressing up outrageously. Crumping. Learning the art of rap. Trunk rides. Face licks. Warm embraces. Frightened jumps. Sly smiles. Saying so much without speaking a word. And just being with each other.

I wish I could go back to all those days and live them again just once more.
I wish more than anything that we could have had just a little more time.
I wish I could be that free again.
I wish I could feel that love again.
I wish I could see those smiles, just one more time.

<3

Sexy People.

Haha, I don't know what is up with me, but for a long time, I had a favorite blog to read. What was it you may ask? Sexy People. The Sexy People-blog. It's pretty much the best time ever. I definitely recommend going to check it out. right now.

Aren't they beautiful?!

Biking with no hands!!

Haha this past Spring/Summer, almost every day, Renzo and I would go on a little bike ride and chat as sometimes we picked up more people along the way and ended up having a group of people biking around town in a little herd. We had so much fun!! I miss biking ever so much.

Along with biking came with competition... of course. I always sucked at riding no-handsies, but Amber and Renzo were the best. They would always show me up. I wish I could've seen this video earlier so I could practice and own their butts while we rode!!! Hahah.

Music.

Soooo as of late I've been listening to some nice acoustic music. Including this beaut of a song.

My friend was learning it on the guitar and I wish I was talented enough to play the guitar.

I have been missing the sound of music constantly around the house, with Sether been gone and all, the house is pretty quiet. I have, however taken up the art of the ukulele. Hahahahah I know a couple of songs, and I'm sure I bug the shizniz out of my mother as I walk around the house strumming those 4 little strings and singing at the top of my lungs. Hey, it makes me feel good, so whatever!! I have been trying to play the guitar, but I still kind of suck. A lot. Haha, my hands are too little!! Or I am just used to a little fretboard. I think I'll stick to guitar hero. :)

Me and the good ol' ukulele.

Another music related thing that I really REALLY want is to go to the Dallas Green concert in Calgary in January. Like I would do anything to go to that. MAN!!! I loooooove City and Colour. Sooo bad. Gah. I cannot express in text how much I long to go to that concert. I will be eagerly watching ebay, because I was too stupid to not buy tickets while I had them in my checkout, and they sold out shortly after. I know, I'm stupid. But, when there's a will, there's a way, so we will see how things pan out. :)

Listen, and bask in the Hometown Glory.

The past 3 weeks.

A lot has happened in the past 3 weeks. More than I ever wish could happen in 3 short weeks.

On October 16th, 2011, there was a tragic car accident in our little town of Magrath, and 4 teens passed away. Two of which were some of my best friends. Um, it doesn't really seem real yet, and I don't think it will for a long time. I don't know. I don't feel like I know anything right now. I'm just stumbling around. I was over having a family dinner at the Dainard's on Wednesday night for Renzo's would-be 17th birthday, and I was talking to his  aunt and she had a similar incident happen to her when she was a teen. She said she took a good couple years for it to become real and for her to cope with it, so we will see how this goes. I'll just live one step at a time.

I don't really know what to write on the interwebs, besides just saying that I love them ever so much and I can't wait to see them again.

It's hard to comprehend. I don't know. It feels like they are on vacation or something. I just miss looking at their smiling faces every day of my life and hearing their contagious laughter ringing in my ears almost constantly. There are so many more things that I wish we could have done, places we could have gone, memories we could have made, but for now I'll just remember all the ones we have had. Hahaha those boys were the light of my life. They were flippin' hilar.

I'll always miss my big brothers more than anything. Those 4 will live in my heart for the rest of my life and I hope to live on with their legacies.

I love you guys.

The last night I saw Renzo. We were at a birthday party and it was seriously one of the best times of my life. I had a freaking blast. It is also the last picture taken of Renzo to our knowledge.

When Clay and I went duck hunting in September. It was the first time I shot a gun and I shot my own duck. :) He said he was so proud. We had plans to go deer hunting in the near future. 

I was flippin' ecstatic every time I got to hang out with my Clay boy. Also taken on his phone, luckily sent to myself the last time I saw him. 

A picture of all the dance girls after our production of Peter Pan in June. Love you Jo-Jo. :)

Grad '09. Also one of the best times of my life. Renzo + me + dances always equaled an outrageously fun time, every time. 

My besties. Love you so so much. 

Seriously like so FREAKING much.